I Am Strong Enough to See Things as They Truly Are
During the Personal Values course, I wrote down my harmful actions, which is not that easy as it sounds. I had to go back and look at my life and describe the actions I did. And, while doing this, I could see clearly what actions pulled me down and what actions lifted me up. After seven years of doing marijuana, I started taking heroin. I always thought to myself that I started doing drugs just for having fun. But now, I can see that wasn’t true. I was too weak to handle the problems I was facing and I escaped from them by taking drugs. I also surrounded myself with anti-social personalities and they had a big influence on me. Covertly, they influenced me to do things I could have never have imagined myself doing.
While writing down the harmful actions I had done, not only did I realise how things used to be back then, but more so, confronting my actions was making me stronger. At the time, I would think I was in a very difficult situation and couldn’t find a solution. But truthfully, I did have a solution—it was right there in front of me. And if I had just put in a little more effort, I could have solved it the right way. But, because I was weak, I chose to do the wrong thing and I complained all the time.
“Why are things the way they are? Why do people act like that? Why me?” All my attention went on unimportant things and I end up doing more and more mistakes.
Until yesterday, there were situations where I was overreacting with my emotions. Something has changed since then. Now, I can see look at a situation and ask myself, “Is that really going to affect me as a person, and if so, what is the easiest way to solve it?” Everything seems very different now.
Solving life problems in an honest way, for the good of all, is the way to do well in life. I am strong enough now to see things as they truly are. And I do not have to avoid them—I can face them and handle them. I accept the things I cannot change and I do my best to deal with the ones I can.
E.D.—Student at Narconon Balkan
(To preserve privacy, the photo does not show an actual Narconon student or graduate.)
