Root Cause of My Addiction

 

Working on the Personal Values course, at first I was feeling sad, but I am happy for myself because I realized why all the bad things happened to me and what the root cause of my bad habits was. Since I was a little kid, I had a habit that I considered fun at the time, and somehow I got obsessed with it, to the point where I thought I would do it for life. And that was stealing. When I was a child, I never asked if I needed something; I would just go about stealing it. Growing up, this habit became even worse, like an addiction, which then led me to other addictions like taking drugs. I fully lost the sense and feelings for people around me. I couldn’t see that my parents were working 2 jobs so I could have a good life. I could only go on breaking their trust. I even stole some things that they worked hard to have. I was lying to them all the time, I wasn’t present when they needed me, I wasn’t even able to keep a job myself, and all this was because of my addictions.

Today, I am very happy this is not part of my life anymore because it ruined me completely. And I wasn’t “clean” toward the people around me. This ugly addiction brought my values too far down in front of others, but not anymore. Before being addicted to drugs, I was calm with self-confidence. But drugs took this away from me. They let me down many times. Today, I feel reborn with ethics toward myself, family, and friends, and I am also able and responsible for my actions.

“I will make it up to my family by doing an honest and legal job, making them happy and giving them love because they deserve it.”

I will make it up to my family by doing an honest and legal job, making them happy and giving them love because they deserve it. I am very responsible and aware of achieving this.

G.S., Student at Narconon Balkan