I Realized the Biggest Reason Why I Started Using Drugs

 

While working with another student on the Objectives, I realized one of the biggest reasons why I began using drugs. It is very simple when I think about it. I had held high expectations when it came to other people, and even from myself, but I was always disappointed. When I fell into that state, I would choose an option which always gave me what I expected from it and it was enough for me at a times.

From cocaine, I expected that it would make me feel confident, and it did. From marijuana, I expected that it would calm me down, and it did. The drugs never “lied” to me or promised me something they couldn’t deliver, so I was satisfied. And in this way, I decided to use every time I would feel bad or disappointed. Until one day, when I didn’t need to feel bad just to take drugs. They had become a part of my life and my routine. Instead of lowering my expectations towards other people, I chose to have expectations from drugs. Instead of working hard for something I wanted to achieve for myself, I smoked marijuana when I couldn’t get what I wanted.

This was a step backwards and a bad plan for my life. I couldn’t move forward and progress like that. I was either stuck in the same place or I was holding myself back. I didn’t try to adjust my expectations or work harder, but instead, I wound up addicted to drugs. Now that I understand this, I also understand my choices and my behavior more.

Student at Narconon Balkan – F.B.