Being able to orient myself in the space surrounding me has been one of my strong suits, and it developed when I got into architecture. But today, I realized that drugs affect my sense of orientation a lot.
Getting advice from other people wasn’t acceptable to me; I always thought that I knew what I was going to throw and others didn’t understand anything.
No one pushed me to go into the dark places I had been. I was the one doing that and taking that decision.
Today, I understood the importance of always being present at every moment. I felt it while doing the objective drills, when I didn’t put attention and my mind fully on the present.
Today I am happy that I live without the effects of drugs, and I am free of them.
Today, I am so proud of myself, because I realized something very big that will help me in the future. I understood that before I was scared to accept reality and to be able to confront the mistakes that I made in the past.
This ugly addiction brought my values too far down in front of others, but not anymore.
Cocaine did not solve anything in my life. But my problems were staying there, always getting bigger and bigger, and I got weak in front of them.
It’s a beautiful thing to be this comfortable and in the moment.
I’ve realized that by working through the drills of the program and bringing my senses to my full capacity here, I'm going to be more able to decide what builds my real happiness in life. I’m finding pieces of my beautiful life here every day, and I’m sure that in the end, I will have a complete picture of it.