Son, Say the Truth

 

The biggest realization that I had was that up to this point in my life, I wasn’t able to break free from my own barriers. The reason for not breaking down these barriers was that my own bad actions were outweighing the good ones by kilometers away. The only confidence I had was cocaine, but this was artificial and not real.

It always bothered me that I had a thought in the back of my mind, “Where do I stand in relation to my family since I’m the complete opposite of them.” I remember the words of my mother, “Son, say the truth!” From my perspective, I could never say the truth or face it before. I always knew what was there to be done, but I never could confront it. Previously, whenever I did do something good, I would see myself as a fake person. The word “good,” was the biggest joke in the world to me. But now, it’s the word that motivates me and pushes me toward my goals!

Four months ago I was the one that didn’t really want to help myself, now I am the one that is pushing others to get through the steps of the program!

“I choose to bring out the good in myself and I choose to also see the good in the other person. Thus leaving our mistakes behind.”

Another thing that I find myself way more able to do than ever before is handling situations, especially bad communication coming from other people. Before I didn’t care how such situations would turn out for me or the other guy. But now, being responsible myself, before rushing to conclusions, I decided to do the best for both of us and deal with the situation using proper communication skills. I choose to bring out the good in myself and I choose to also see the good in the other person. Thus leaving our mistakes behind.

The biggest damage I’ve done in this life is lying to myself. I don’t want to put a false image out there for people anymore, but to be the real me. Because only in that way I can see what I can become!

Thank you, Narconon Balkan!

—HJS, Narconon Balkan Student