I Feel Great About What I Am Experiencing Right Now
I am writing the harmful actions I have done, and since I’ve been doing this, everything is becoming clearer and clearer. I can now see that in most of the situations I found myself, I was struggling and wishing to experience something else rather than what I was actually experiencing. During this period of my life, I was traveling back and forth from Albania to the USA. When I was in Albania, I wanted to go back in the USA. Then, the same happened during my stay in the USA—I would always want to go back to Albania. I didn’t understand why this was happening. But, I always felt like I wanted something that I couldn’t have.
After years of feeling unstable, I am now at the point that I don’t feel the need to ask for something that I shouldn’t have. And more importantly, I don’t even feel a need for it. I feel happy working on my weak areas and building up my strengths. I feel great about what I am experiencing right now. I have gone through a lot of manifestations, but the feeling of relief I get afterwards it’s so priceless.
My awareness is expanding every day. I have become more honest with myself and others. I am applying ethics and morals in my life. All of my regained abilities are because I have dealt with the harmful actions I did. I never imagined that the wrongdoings of my past would affect my present life so much. Also, I can see through my harmful actions and learn from them. I confront them and I say to myself, “Wow, I actually did that.” I can look at these moments in my life and see that I thought destructive actions were totally normal and ordinary. Now, I cannot imagine doing those same actions again.
And now I realise why. I know now why I never felt happy—I was not honest with myself. And, I was not honest with others. Even though I tried, I could not use morals and ethics in my life and that was holding me back. But now I have the knowledge I need and have gained the abilities to live my life as it should be. And I feel so grateful for what this course is teaching me.
E.D.—Student at Narconon Balkan
(To preserve privacy, the photo does not show an actual Narconon student or graduate)
