Achieving Present Time with Objectives
What I feel right now is just unexplainable. I feel that I have become a new person—I can feel my new life about to start. It’s hard for me to believe what I experienced today. I can’t even remember a time when I felt like this. I have never felt so calm, so relaxed and as free as I do now. I just feel like myself completely. I feel complete.
Today I understood something beautiful and it impacted me the very moment I realized it. I understood that when I was speaking about myself and my life to my family, I wasn’t right. I realized that the thought that it is normal to take drugs when you are young is wrong. I can now see that I was not accepting their advice because I thought they somehow had offended me. I realized that from that moment when I started using drugs, I was not living a real life. I can see now that who I was then was a person who was judging others. I understood that I was insatiable, I was never satisfied with anything, I was never getting enough, and because of this, I was committing criminal acts. I realized that I am the one who controls my life and no one else. I understand that I can decide for my own life, I am responsible for my life, that I can choose a good way or a bad way, and I can choose to create something good or create something bad. I can repair something or I can destroy something, I can talk good or talk bad. Everything that is connected with me, I am responsible.
“I feel like I am born for the second time”
I have such a calm feeling in my mind and in my soul. I feel completely in the present time. I can see clearer and the colors seem brighter. Everything around me appears more real. Now I can experience everything and nothing disturbs me. My mind is so calm, so relaxed, I don’t have to think about something, or have mental images, or anything else. I am feeling-oriented and I have a lot more control. Things around me look like they have more love and peace. It is an unexplainable feeling. If I have one wish it would be to have this calmness that I have now forever, to feel how I feel now and I don’t want anything else. Thank you for everything, for helping me to have all these beautiful wins and gains. Now I feel that I am beginning a new life, I just now need to learn how to be, how to manage this beautiful life. I feel like I have been re-born. Thank you!
A.SH.—Student at Narconon Balkan
